Happy Birthday, Saber

13 May is Saber's birthday. I know I'm acting like an anime freak recently, but let this post be a tribute to my favourite character in Fate.

I didn't prepare any present though. But I'll compensate for it after my exam. I've drawn a series of imitation picture of her, so maybe I'll post it up here as a belated birthday present.. ^^

Satte tto,

Among all the masters she'd come across, this pair is the one I love the most.. Words are only too plain and monotonous to describe how elegant and adorable they are.. Best pairing for Saber undoubtedly..

Motto mo,

This is the best outfit I like to Saber in. But it's only available in Unlimited Codes.. Boo-hoo.. Isn't it B-E-A-U-TIFUL??? XD

Mada...

This one is just too ethereal that I fee like posting it every time I talked about Saber.. Her posture while making a wish like an ordinary girl is just brilliant.. I've to stare at it for 5 minutes once I see this pic..


Saigo wa..

I've always fantasized her staying in present era and learn about the latest gadgets.. It'll be so much fun if that really happens.. So, maybe next time I'll come out with a bunch of her pictures in modern days, self-drawn of course.. =D

For the last time...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SABER..
NO MATTER HOW MANY BIRTHDAYS YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE, YOU'RE FOREVER THE SAME AGE..

MY ONE AND ONLY SABER.. ^^

Battle Warm Up

Lmao.. BC exam today was like.. dunno I should facepalm real hard or dead laughing..

I set a real high target for this exam.. And I spent 3 hours memorizing all the Chinese dictum. Hell it got the gut out of me. I was half dead after getting 20 dictum stuffed up my brain, with all the authors and origins.. Let me tell you, this is the first time I went berserk enough to memorize the origin as well. Normally, I just tembak and normally, I miss the target.. XD

Result from over brain usage, I went straight to bed without reading through the grammar. Oh, after I pray of course. And you know what? It ends up to be that my dictum part flash green light and the grammar section shows red one instead. Goodness...

Now you should understand why I said I dunno if I should facepalm real hard or dead laughing.. =.=

The comprehension part was surprisingly straightforward. I hate the figurative kind of question. This time is like, answers are straight from the passage. SAVE~!! Tee hee. And the other thing that killed me is the Classic Chinese. Barely understand the faq it talks about. And for the translation part, tembak again.. COOL..

Well, this is just a pre-battle I call it. The next week will be the real war. I should turn my engine into full power this time. SPM no joke man.. Crap that piece of paper is gonna determine my future.. T.T

I'm real beat now. And in 10 minutes time I have to attend tuition pulak. Tomorrow BC Composition some more. Hope I can stay awake long enough to read through all that I should..

God bless me..

She's not doing well at the moment. But at least she's improving. Wish her to be fine.. =)

我没有绝对要赢的理由，但我绝对不能有输的借口。

Happy Birthday, Shinichi!

Just a short post. Something I couldn't make it in time yesterday. Haha..

4 May is Shinichi's birthday..
 Just making this post as a tribute to this awesome anime character.. ^^

Happy Birthday to you, Shinichi...
=)

あなたがいた森 Anata ga ita Mori

This is indeed, the first ending theme of Fate/Stay Night anime. ^^

 The translation of the lyrics sure got a variety of version.
I found one I'm most satisfied with. This version makes out most senses..

 Deep inside the forest, there's a faint fragrant i cherish
Searching for that everyday face, you unexpectedly smile

I wanted to feel you, wanted to see you. Even when i reached my hand out, your fleeting image flickered in the air

I have always wanted to meet you, always. 
Passing through the sleepless nights
I cry surrounded amidst the light and shadow you have left behind

The sinking evening sun burns my useless self
My bare feet tread on the wreckage of love, seeping red

I tried to touch your hand if it was held out, your voice said

"I love you." Now that unreachable song has been swept away in the wind
Disappeared far away
The hourglass high in the sky, flies past whatever is seen, anything. That day's sound still echoes.

The views which cannot be touched a second time
Smoothly flowing out

"In-erasable" The increasing past atmosphere, the layers of past memories, these hands and this hair also.
The light and shadow you left behind is too much and has already become too overwhelming.

Deep inside the forest...

And the kanji of course.. :)

深い深い森の中　ほのか香る　愛しい 
日々の面影　探してみれば　ふいにあなたが笑う 

触れてみたくて　手を伸ばしても　儚く宙を舞ったのです 

あなたに会いたくてずっと　会いたくてずっと　想う 
眠れぬ夜を渡り 
あなたが残した　光と影の中に　包まれて泣いている 

ダメなあたしを　焦がし沈む夕日と 
裸足のまま愛の残骸を踏んで　滲んだ　赤 

触れてみようと　手をかざしたら　あなたの声がしたの 

『愛してる。』　いまさら届かぬ　唄は風にさらわれ 
はるか消えていったよ 
砂時計空高く　飛ばしてみても何も　あの日の音は響かず 

二度とは触れない景色たちが 
さらさら　流れ出して 

『消せない。』　増えすぎた空気　重ねすぎた記憶と　その手もその髪も 
あなたが残した　光と影はあまりにも　大きすぎるのでした。 

深い深い森の中で…

Just updating..

Well, I'm not really on good mood today.

I can't say I'm depressed either. Just fee like something got on my nerve and my emot‭ion is stirred for a bit.

Something is not right too.
Not the one I usually "feel" not right, but this time there's really something going on.. I can't tell how and what, but it's really there..

Maybe it's the weather. People keep getting sick. One by one the seat gets empty. Their owners are probably resting at home. It's normal if it happens occasionally. But what bothers me is, why suddenly so many cases within few weeks?

I can't say for sure what actually happen. But it's just too weird.. Hope everything is well.. =(

Anyway..
I'm pretty ambivalent.I don't know what's wrong with myself either. Or maybe, I just dunno what to do with myself, despite that I know where the problem is.

I've grown rather cynical. The light glitters in my eyes went dull day by day.. This is bad..

When can I reach the self that is open-hearted and forgiving, able to accept whatever that is thrown at me?

If I keep up this self-centered attitude I won't be able to associate with any other. It's the rejecting factor within that hinders me from reaching out. How can get it rooted up? It's annoying..

Sigh..
Why life just can't be a bed of roses? I'm fed up to figure out everything by myself when there's not a single guidance. Adults sucks to think I'm all too relaxing. The truth is I'm having war everyday with myself.. Goodness I feel like my brain is tearing apart..

Fate route ending [Realta Nua]

Gosh. I did find a download link for Realta Nua, but I think it's not worth it for the moment.. I don't want to get my mind devoured by Visual Novel anymore, not at least for these few months.. lol..

And goodness the size is twice larger than the original Type Moon Fate/Stay Night Visual Novel.. The original one is about 2.77GB.. took me 6 hours to fully download.. Can you imagine how long will it take to download 4.17GB torrent file? Forget it for now..

As I'm desperate to read the ending of Fate route in Realta Nua, I went searching relevant videos on youtube. Here is my yield anyway. ^^




It's a pity I can't read the Realta Nua version..
And it's a pity I'll lost interest in reading thoroughly even I can get one in the days to come..

But let it be. I got the ending here already..

 Honestly, I don't quite get the meaning of Shirou meeting Saber in the end. Is it like reunion in the afterlife? That place doesn't seem to exist in real world.. If I'm not mistaken, that should be Avalon, the land of Utopia, and the scabbard of Excalibur.. Haha.. well, that makes sense..

 OH!! I found the piece of information...

 "Avalon, the unreachable utopia that Arthur dreamed of and was said to have gone to after her death."

 Here is the proof! From type-moon wiki.. Yeah.. Means that Shirou goes to that Utopia too after he's dead?

Two miracles..
The one that wait endlessly and the one that pursue endlessly...
Saber is the one waiting and Shirou is the one pursuing..
This sanctity is bringing tears into my eyes.. 

Finally they're able to be together...
 Finally the ending I want...
 This ending is not even animated though..
 Thanks to Realta Nua that I can watch it.. :)

Fate/Stay Night

Warning: lost post ahead..


Lol. I can be considered as half an otaku. Honestly, my life without manga, anime and those sort is like a lake without water. Don't call me childish for having an obsession in anime and manga. It's my spirit nutrients, OK?

Well, Fate/Stay Night earn a fame from me. I knew this anime in year 2010, when I was 15. Thanks to NTV7 that I got to know it, and no thanks for NTV7 for the sucking Malay dubbed version. The storyline is eyes-catching enough even in Malay version, so I happened to get interested.

I watched Fate/Stay Night adapted anime on youtube that time, but didn't get REALLY crazy over it back then. I mean BACK THEN because I'm officially a Fate BIG FAN. Bunch of thanks to Type-Moon for releasing this epic product of fantasy. I call it a product, not an anime or manga. Because Fate/Stay Night sure has a bunch of form: manga, anime, visual novel, PS2 game, and blaa blaa blaaaaa..

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SABER, YOU'RE MY SUPERHERO~!!!!!!

WHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

 I can't help it.. Saber is such a multi-talented beauty. And you never how much I admire her like a sister. Well, she's younger than me though, aged 15, height 154cm. Haha. I'm a bit taller, 157cm. Well, It doesn't matter who is taller who is older, but I truly love Saber!!! XDD

Bwahaha..

It's been a long time since my heart will skip a beat when I see an epic anime. The last time was Detective Conan I believe, and my attention is now on FSN, cause DC seems to have a never-ending plot.

I got really really and truly truly enthusiastic on FSN after I watched Fate/Zero, a prequel of FSN. In Fate/Zero, romance is scarce, but some chemicals seems to be working with Gilgamesh that he got attached with Saber. I don't know how it goes, but I will wait until the second season to watch it with my own eyes. Myahaha.. I love Gilgamesh too, and I'll love him more if his personality is not that twisted.. LOL.

I got the Visual Novel too. Crap it sure gets me into some labyrinth to get this Visual Novel. I want the Realta Nua version too. Better quality from all aspects, CGs, voices and the H-scenes are removed. Erm.. if you don't know, I'll give a warning here. FSN originally has some erotica in it, so it's actually 18X. But Realta Nua got it into an all-age version, that's why I want it.. T.T

Well, actually to tell the truth, the Visual Novel I have with me is not a Realta Nua. And all the H-scenes are all attached inside. I have to endure the damage it causes to my mental health if I want to finish the novel.. Not an easy task. It's not like I'm a eroge lover, but it's still hard not to be affected by it. And it's part of the story, just quit the ranting.. ._.

I've completed the Fate route in FSN VN. Now working on Unlimited Blade Works route, currently at Day 11. OMG. I haven't get into Heaven's Feel route, taking like, another 6 days for me to complete.

The fate route is actually animated in 24 episodes. I watch the anime before reading the VN. So it's not VERY interesting anymore. And I have to temporarily numb my memory when playing the Fate route. Lucky thing is that, some part of my memory did get hazy over time. After playing the VN, I want to re-watch the anime again. Hahahaha.. <3

Since I haven't complete EVERYTHING, I can't write a review on the VN. As soon as I'm done, I'll make sure I write something about it, as writing is my hobby too.. Tee Hee..

After these three routes, I'm targetting Fate/Hollow Ataraxia and Carnival Phantasm, if time permits. Sigh..

Something about the male character. Even after playing the original VN, Emiya Shirou have't get any rank higher from my point of view. My ranking for him goes back to zero. It's a bit of improvement, cause I ranked him a negative number after the anime.. Haiz.. Maybe it'll change if I play all the three routes. ^^

There's other character I love a lot in FSN, but not as much as I love Saber. Archer, Tohsaka Rin played a main role, and it's amusing to have them around the story so much. I don't really find Matou Sakura interesting, but maybe I'll change my mind after Heaven's Feel, as she's featured in that route.

Speaking of featuring.. Fate route features Saber, Unlimited Blade Works route features Tohsaka Rin and Heaven's Feel route features Matou Sakura. One thing that makes me think a bit bad about Shirou is that, in Fate route he loves Saber, in UBW route he likes Rin and in HF route he's attached to Sakura instead. Kind of pissing me off for wooing so many girls. But luckily it's in different stories, if not I'll just jump in and knock him to hell... =.=

.........

I'm thinking about buying a hard disc to store up all my digital collection. Games, Songs, Pictures, Photos, Videos, Anime, Movies, Manga.... I sure need a lot of capacity to fill my non-stop collection.

If I can really get a Hard Disc, downloading Visual Novel with big size won't get myself scolded too.. Haha..

Now, I'm planning about hiding in my room reading FSN VN until late midnight today...
Oh, my dear Saber..
I got a pretty weird wish..
I want to see her smile, from the bottom of her heart..

That's why when I can really see her smile after all the hardships she's been through, my breath get uneven and my eyes are watery... If she's real or if I'm illusional, I want to embrace her and gently stroke her golden hair, like she's the most important person to me....

It's absurd, but it's my true word of honesty... :)

Little of this and that

Fleming Right Hand Rule.. CURRENT!!! T.T

Why it's so unfair? My koko bought a new Sony Ericsson, much cheaper than mine yet the function is far more better, saving the camera apart. OMG the graphics, the music, the whatever are so superb. And it's obvious that the screen is bigger. Damnation.. >.<

If my memory does not fail, it's Sony Ericsson Live. Released last year. Mine was released earlier, making the function not in league with the later version. Good old hell..

Nah, let it be. I should be content with my current phone, though it's a bit lousier and a bit more expensive. Next time I'll target a really good cellphone. iPhone? XD

Just now in the morning I had a little talk with Andy, concerning the current news from next door. It's frustrating that I've been dragged and held back. I'm not moving fast enough to match up the pace of my competitors. I really need some motivation to boost up my spirit. It won't help if I keep up this speed and attitude.

SPM is drawing near, but the urge to study and strike harder haven't hit my mind. I've gotta seek out the element that embodies me and prompts me to reach out. I don't work well under pressure. Don't think about setting a lion behind me to make me run, I'll just give up and let the beast devour me...

What I need is the soul motivation. That piece of gearwheel in which I lack is the key to everything. I need something as fuel to burn my spirit... Not the fire behind that forcibly urge me to run.. My mind don't run that way...

Motivation...

It's love that I need. Passion will drive me to take up the road leading towards all impossibilities..

It's love.. And passion that I need and seek...

On My Seventeenth Birthday..

Sorry for turning into a super inactive blogger this year. My enthusiasm on blogging seems to have worn out over time.. I'll try to be active again if I can.. Haha.

28 March 2012

I'm turning seventeen. But honestly, today's just as normal and ordinary as ever. And I don't feel like growing up at all. Lol. Seventeen marks another beginning of my life, as it symbolise another level of maturity. All the onee-chan's I've looked up to for the pass years of yore has become of the same age with me. And starting next year, they'll be my imouto's instead. It's kind of sentimental..

On my seventeenth, I dare not expect too much from fate, friends and family, just like always. Just hope everything will be fine and well for me. I hope not for the perfection, but simplicity has always been the thing I'm after of. May God bless..

Tidings and greetings and blessings from friends, so are some presents. My family just bought a small birthday cake, what it represent is vague to me. It doesn't really matter anyway.

My biggest birthday wish of all others is nothing more than getting straight A+ for the bloody SPM. It's once in a lifetime. SPM bears a weight nigh meaningless in the journey in life, but the effort made to excel is a part of confidence building. A certificate with result of flying colours holds no attraction. I just want to strike with whatever I have to be the best of myself. It's the miracle and the joy I seek. Getting straight A+ means a miracle for me, as it's one of the impossibility. =)

Leaving aside the exam-phobia, there're actually a few things I dream of getting/doing.. Lol.

Even since I watch the Hunger Games trailer at the end of 2011, my instinct told me that movie's gonna be a read badass epic. My sixth sense is pretty reliable. Looking at the achievement of Hunger Games in the first week on big screen, it proves my instinct has hit the bull's eye after all.

I really want to watch Hunger Games on big screen. Don't advise me to buy DVD in the later days, I'll sock the living daylight out of you. What excitement can a TV screen bring forth? T.T

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Here's a trailer..



But I guess pinning it here is useless. Who on earth don't know about this popular movie anyway..

Next, I wish to read another epic novel of fantasy. God I've been waiting for the book for ages. It was released on 8 Nov 2011. But the price tag killed me.. T.T

Inheritance.. Book 4 of Inheritance Cycle..

Honestly, I've forgotten about the earlier part of the story. I read it about 2 years ago.. And my retarded memory don't help much...

I actually want to have the whole series.. but it's damn expensive.. Goodness...

And I want to have Fate/Stay Night Visual Novel... Though it's extremely unsuitable for me to read it for now.. Haiz...

 Fate route

 Unlimited Blade Works route

My beloved lovely Saber... <3

Foo-YOH

Today si beh high wor~

For a long time I din go as crazy as today liao..

Never mind.. no matter wat the reason is, I just love the moment..

This peace in mind and high in mood is so awesome..

But I know exammmmmmmmmmmmmm is so damn KNS..

>.<

next week FIGHT~!!